Thursday, April 6, 2017
April marked the most unforgettable month of this year, and it's only the beginning of April
This month, I learn how to let go of things and be mindful to make decisions that is close as a priority in life
Instead of keeping this thought to myself, I feel the need to pour it all out and share it with you, and here's why...
This month, I let go of
my return flight tickets from Jakarta to Vietnam, right on the day before my departure
a long overdue trip with the closest friends that we've been planning for months
a remarkable food tour in Hanoi by local university students
a 3day2night adventure on the boat overlooking the beautiful karst in Lan Ha Bay
a dream to do kayaking in one of the most iconic sight in Asia
the stupid conversations over a round table filled with Bánh mì, Phở, and the famous egg coffee
some meaningful conversations between all five of us that might only happen throughout the trip
teasing a few of them who will protest the idea of sleeping in a capsule hostel
admiring the heavy French influence in Vietnam modern days
a day trip to Hue in search of ancient tombs and their history
the proud moment to spend my own savings after working tirelessly for a trip abroad
the evening bike ride wandering through alleys and small bridges in Hoi An
being homesick on the last few days before going back home listening to Float' Pulang in between transit
feeling both exhilarated and tired upon the arrival to my homeland after 12 days, and grow to appreciate things more
I was feeling both devastated and relieved at the same time while cancelling that trip the day before. I was devastated because all of my expectations and the efforts that have gone to make that trip possible. Yet I felt also relieved knowing that I don't have to worry about my mother's health throughout that trip and that I can take a good care of her while she's sick. I can only imagine it would be too painful to be on a holiday while worrying and instantly checking up on her condition separated by thousand miles away.
It has been hard and I only hope for things to get better. I come to an understanding that we learn the most valuable life lessons only during the hardest moment. This time, to let go of a trip that you wanted to go so badly and choose what really matter to the heart. Although I'm such an avid fan of making plans. Somehow, we cannot compare a privilege of taking care of our parents with such thing as checking items off the bucket list. Plans shifted, unexpected things happen all of a sudden, and that's okay.
Tuesday, March 28, 2017
I've never felt so content with a moment of solitary
Usually it will leaves me feeling anxious, but not today
With an upcoming trip exploring Vietnam for 12 days
I crave it for more than anything in the world
I wonder why since when,
packing up things into a suitcase feels so unfamiliar
Maybe it's just the terrible weather,
or maybe it's a grown up thing
The day of getting out is usually the best day in the world
But with much unnecessary random thoughts
Appreciating more time alone is as important
as a way to see the world before my own eyes
(the so-called pre vacation blues, if there's one. I hope it goes away pretty soon)
Monday, March 13, 2017
It was dawn when I set my foot on the first train aboard to the so called hidden gem of West Java
A total of 3 hours commuting get me into a peaceful sight of paddy fields and the mountain
But the beauty of its landscape slowly fades away by my work-related expectation
I was chased by my own time, thoughts, and efforts
Having lived in a fast paced city, wasting time gave me an uneasy feeling
It let me down to a sudden disappointment when all the plans were screwed up
While this happened, I found myself wanted to scream
But luckily my heart didn't let it happen
Instead, it reminded me to breathe for a second and enjoy a brief moment of revelation
It was when the sky turned into purple pink and I slept my way through the sound of cricket singing lullaby
The next day, Kathleen Collins' short story calmed me down
Before braving myself getting into the two wheels, followed by another three hours train ride back home
Friday, March 3, 2017
The thing that always get me excited to collaborate with magazine is the opportunity to meet with people from different backgrounds, especially when I get a chance to shoot their humble abode with endless stories of where their inspiration comes from as a bonus. In this post, I'm sharing with you my thoughts behind a recent editorial work for ELLE Decoration Indonesia : Festive Issue. I usually update my works on my portfolio website: here, but I'm planning to share more stories/thoughts about works that I do more often here on the blog under Behind The Lens category, let me know what you think!
I believe that a home should be able to portray one's personality, it accommodates not only a shelter to live, but a sanctuary where you could feel alive even though you spend the rest of your day lazing around. This time, the journey brings me to a very lovely house belongs to Riana Bismarak. You could never guess that down in a narrow street of Kemang is where this tropical house situated, with so much open air, colours, and lush of greens.
I arrived early and spent the next hour getting to know the household before entering the shooting mode. This conversation is always a crucial moment for me since it will decide whether a shoot will go smoothly or not. Even though the main objective is to get some worthy photographs of how a festive moment should be celebrated, it really is not that simple. During those conversation, I got to know how she fight for her own dreams, after working for a long time in a corporate world, she left the job and lived in Bali for a few years before embark on an entrepreneurial journey in Jakarta. I strongly believe that as a photographer, especially with a scoop of work shooting lifestyle, it has to come natural to you to interact with people. Not for the sake of getting good photography, but for being inspired with people's stories.
Shooting at her home brings back all the memories of having a dream house when I was a little. I always get so thrilled whenever visiting bookstore flipping through beautiful pages of Interior books. Despite living in a big city since I was born, I do believe that I'm a really tropical girl at heart.